It’s been a while since I wrote something in my blog. Now, I just felt like writing my thoughts of being an “orphan”. Maybe you’ve lost your parents because of sickness, tragedy in an unexpected situation or you feel like they’re not with you even if they’re alive…
“Know that GOD IS THINKING OF YOU.”
Yes, me and 5 of my siblings became an orphan since my mother died last 2013. My father died before her around June 2001. It’s has been a difficult situation, roller coaster ride, and the feeling is sooooo surreal. I’ve never expected this to happen but I just embraced this process and God even more. There are questions but it’s beyond my logic. It’s an everyday fight but I need to respond right.
Did I cry? Of course! Name it… In the jeepney, tricycle, taxi, MRT and while walking. The pain is there but I yielded to God’s power and draw strength to him.
A Pastor told me before (forgot the exact words but it’s something like this), “just let it all out. Just go through the process because we need to go through that. If you need to cry, just cry. Healing will come and when that time comes you don’t want to miss the promises of God.”
Then I prayed that He will give me mentors and even families who will “adopt” me and open their homes to me as well. I know that it’s going to be a tough ride and I need people who will guide me and give me godly counsel. Then two of my mentors talked to me and prayed for me. They even encouraged me to take this time to draw more to God and they mentioned to me this verse:
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” Psalms 34:18 ESV
Taking one step at time and told myself that I wanna worship God even to the lowest and darkest point of my life.
Did I feel like quitting? Yes! I feel like I have all the reasons in the world to just quit and stop (my father, nephew, mother and recently my brother died) But God would remind me, would it make things better? Of course NOT! I know for a fact that it will just make things worst!
Never been easy but you know it’s all worth it to pray and seek God after all the chaos in life. I’m glad that He gave me women / mentors who would coach me and be like a mom to me. Yes! It’s an answered prayer. Everyday God knows how grateful I am to have friends, mentors and even spiritual family who will run the race with me.
Life is not meant to be cruel and you’re not meant to walk alone!
It’s a humbling experience to ask for help but all the more it thought me to draw strength to God because He is the main source of everything that we need.
The more I feel His love as a Father and Mother to me. He is the ultimate shepherd and God will direct our paths straight. Let’s not miss out God’s word in every season.
Everyday is an opportunity to be grateful and experience the faithfulness of God in our lives.
Don’t feel that you’re alone because God is thinking of you 24/7.
““For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord,” Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV