It’s been a while since I wrote something in my blog. Now, I just felt like writing my thoughts of being an “orphan”. Maybe you’ve lost your parents because of sickness, tragedy in an unexpected situation or you feel like they’re not with you even if they’re alive…
“Know that GOD IS THINKING OF YOU.”
Yes, me and 5 of my siblings became an orphan since my mother died last 2013. My father died before her around June 2001. It’s has been a difficult situation, roller coaster ride, and the feeling is sooooo surreal. I’ve never expected this to happen but I just embraced this process and God even more. There are questions but it’s beyond my logic. It’s an everyday fight but I need to respond right.
Did I cry? Of course! Name it… In the jeepney, tricycle, taxi, MRT and while walking. The pain is there but I yielded to God’s power and draw strength to him.
A Pastor told me before (forgot the exact words but it’s something like this), “just let it all out. Just go through the process because we need to go through that. If you need to cry, just cry. Healing will come and when that time comes you don’t want to miss the promises of God.”
Then I prayed that He will give me mentors and even families who will “adopt” me and open their homes to me as well. I know that it’s going to be a tough ride and I need people who will guide me and give me godly counsel. Then two of my mentors talked to me and prayed for me. They even encouraged me to take this time to draw more to God and they mentioned to me this verse:
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” Psalms 34:18 ESV
Taking one step at time and told myself that I wanna worship God even to the lowest and darkest point of my life.
Did I feel like quitting? Yes! I feel like I have all the reasons in the world to just quit and stop (my father, nephew, mother and recently my brother died) But God would remind me, would it make things better? Of course NOT! I know for a fact that it will just make things worst!
Never been easy but you know it’s all worth it to pray and seek God after all the chaos in life. I’m glad that He gave me women / mentors who would coach me and be like a mom to me. Yes! It’s an answered prayer. Everyday God knows how grateful I am to have friends, mentors and even spiritual family who will run the race with me.
Life is not meant to be cruel and you’re not meant to walk alone!
It’s a humbling experience to ask for help but all the more it thought me to draw strength to God because He is the main source of everything that we need.
The more I feel His love as a Father and Mother to me. He is the ultimate shepherd and God will direct our paths straight. Let’s not miss out God’s word in every season.
Everyday is an opportunity to be grateful and experience the faithfulness of God in our lives.
Don’t feel that you’re alone because God is thinking of you 24/7.
““For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord,” Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV
April 13, 2015
Sometimes when we go through tough times or even cross roads in our lives, you would often hear this or maybe once in your life you heard this phrase, “Let Go and Let God”. The question is, is it really worth it?
Last week, We’re able to clean up my Mama’s canteen stuff since we’re going to close it already. Personally, I’m a sentimental fool.😉 I wanted to keep everything but physically I know we can’t, since we don’t have enough space at home. As I look into the things that she invested for so many years, I felt sad and even nostalgic because everything seems so unreal to me that we’re going to pack things up without her. I even remember the time when she told me who will take over if I’m gone? Etc. As I look into the old stuff, I started dreaming and thinking that one day, we’re going to replace it with brand new things and more excellent as well. Then, it helped me to easily let go of the old stuff believing that God will return everything new and for sure better ones.
For me, letting go means you don’t want to be attached anymore to something that you don’t want to have (yes, the memories will always be there). May it be career, material things, emotions, your plans, or even relationships. For me, it’s one of the hardest thing to do esp if it’s a loved one. But through some trials and testings in life, I can only say that when I let go I am giving God an opportunity to move things for me and for Him to make things new. It’s a humbling act that admitting that you can’t do things on your own and believing that someone who is greater than you can do amazing things.
When we let go, it’s going to be a test of faith and a rough ride as well. We need to seek God by reading His word and pray about it. It’s gonna be a challenge esp for those who are control freak and who are not used to know what’s next. Well, let’s respond right towards ur situation not to rebel but to obey.
Letting go is an avenue to dream big, increase our faith, claim Gods promises and to hold on to His word that “He is in control of everything and He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us but give us a hope and a future”. So I say, it’s worth it to let go and let God.
Why solotravel? It’s always part of my bucket list to do a solotravel. Actually, I’ve scheduled it last November 2013 but due to Yolanda I chose to cancel my trip to Taiwan and I’d rather help in whatever capacity that I can through our office. Back then, my mother knew about my travel but I think mentioned to her that I’m going solo (confused… Haha). Few weeks after, my mother passed away and felt like I don’t wanna do it again. Felt so stressed out and I just wanna forget some of the things that I want because I’m still mourning etc. etc…. Making lots of excuses for myself but deep inside of me tells me to pursue that goal. Two months after, I saw a promo going to Taiwan and now I stepped out of my comfort zone again and told myself that I think I have to do this esp I want to breathe fresh air and new environment might give me some encouragement as well. I end up booking myself for 6 full days solo trip to Taiwan. No travel agency but a DIY itinerary. Thanks to trip advisor, air bnb, Google and to my friends who are also solo travelers who inspired me to continue this 1st ever solo trip. Then my much awaited solotravel begins… Timely because I want to rediscover myself, re-align my heart towards God, be grateful of the creations of The Lord and appreciate life in spite of difficulties. So why solotravel? Especially for a woman is it worth it? Is it safe? Is it worth the risk? What are the disadvantages? I’ll try to answer one by one (in my own capacity… haha). 1. It feels LIBERATING Liberate means (from Merriam Webster): > to free (someone or something) from being controlled by another person, group, etc. > to give freedom or more freedom to (someone) Yes! “Sometimes” it feels good not to be controlled by a group or a person esp when you’re on a vacay. You get to decide things on your own. What time will you wake up? Where are you going? What to eat? And what kind of transportation you’re going to take? Well, if you get lost or if you woke up late there’s nobody to blame but yourself.:) you can walk slow or even rush just to see the sunset (like what I did in Taipei). Cowboy style or not? You get to decide alone. I think it takes courage (esp when there’s a language barrier) and maturity to decide esp when you’re in a foreign land. This solo trip liberated me from being to hard on to myself. If I wasn’t able to do everything that I planned in my itinerary, I just let it go easily and resched it. I learned how to slow down and savor each moment by appreciating up to the smallest details of the place.2. You still need to BE CAREFUL and WISE
Solotravel might get you so much excited but it requires you to be more careful and vigilant esp if you’re in a crowded place or maybe if your going far away from the city. Not to the extent of you being paranoid. Just enough for you to be proactive. Don’t forget to have a soft copy of your visa, passport and id. You can also photocopy it. Bring an anti theft bag or pouch that will protect your cards and you can secure your passport as well. If you’re going to visit a province, like when I visited Jinguashin, Jiufen, and Taichung it took me almost 2-3hrs away from Taipei. You need to check the schedule of buses and their trains to make sure that you’ll not miss any of it. I advise esp for the women to take the 3rd or the 2nd to the last schedule in case of any changes and for you to be safe as well. Not to leave after sunset so that you’ll avoid getting lost and most of the people doesn’t speak English.
3. Be FRIENDLY and POLITE During my trip, I felt like that I can easily adopt to a certain culture. Tho, I still need more immersions just to confirm this. Haha Being friendly is good but not to the extent of sharing your life. You still need to know your limitations as a tourist and always be reminded by our parent’s basic rule: “don’t talk to strangers” might help too. Always be polite in asking the locals some questions, where to go? What to ride? Where can I find this? Etc… It’s good that you learn their basic expressions and always smile to them.
I stayed in a hostel and what’s good about staying in a hostel is that you get to meet fellow nomads. Great cross cultural conversations, learning from each other’s trips, history of your beloved countries and they would even give you tips what are the best places to visit and how to go there (first hand experience). Remember, you are an ambassador of your own country and you reflect what kind of country you’re living in. It might change their perspective about Filipinos as well.
4. Will make you more COURAGEOUSThis might be a real challenge for a faint hearted or for people who are dependent but I say, it’s really worth it. Doing solotravel, will make you more courageous and be more independent. For sure, your first concern is, who will take my photos???? My ootd? And how can I bring all my bags? Etc… Haha Funny questions and for sure you thought of it too. People can take a photo of you unless you ask them in a nice and friendly way. We say it in Filipino, “kapal ng mukha” haha. Don’t miss the chance of having your portrait in a nice view or maybe you can bring a tripod / go pro if you want. I brought my happy pod all throughout my trip and would also ask some tourists or locals to take my photo. Eating some delicacies or food during their night market can be super fun. Since I’m not that adventurous about food, I chose not to eat their stinky tofu or other exotic food. Haha that I’m not courageous enough!;) 5. Be ready for a fun filled ADVENTURE You can still have memorable adventures even if you’re on a solo trip. I will never forget when I went up the elephant mountain, it was so steep and took me around a thousand steps just to watch the sunset and the skyline of Taipei I’m the evening. It’s sooooo worth it even if I need to bring the stuff that I bought from IKEA with my backpack. Kinda heavy but it didn’t hinder me to do that one of a kind adventure. Such a magnificent view and time to seethe sunset. It was breathtaking!
Sipping a cup of coffee in Jiufen was a great experience too! You can see the overlooking view of the Pacific Ocean, clouds right in front of you, and mountains are so refreshing. All you can think of is, God thank you for this wonderful experience that I get to witness your creation. Countless stories on how people approached me and talked to me in Mandarin because they thought that I’m also Taiwanese. Funny that I can get to disguise like them but after saying Nihao and Xiexie, they realized that I’m a tourist.:) Solotravel can also reaffirm if you have a sense of direction. Well, you can try not to look at the map all the time and check if you’ll get off the right train station. When people give you directions, do you still remember it or not?:)
****** For me, it brought so much inspiration that Taiwan is one of the nicest places to visit in Asia esp for a first time solotravelers like me. Thanks to my friend who encouraged me to “launch” my first solo trip in Taiwan.;) no regrets! It inspired me to dream more about Philippines. I guess, the patriotic inside of me would always say, I hope we have this kind of bus or train system in our country, etc… They’re very systematic, simple, and efficient. I admire all their signages and information that they provided not only for the locals but to the tourists as well. Solotravel will renew your perspective about traveling. Sometimes it’s also fun to be alone. Take note, “sometimes”… Haha It could give you a time to think, recharge, discover yourself more, make new friends, appreciate life and God even more.So take that leap of faith and check it to your bucket list. At least, once in your life you can proudly say to yourself that you did something different. It’s worth the risk!;)
Our last full day in Batanes… Sad but excited! Tho, the weather is different from yesterday bec it’s a cloudy day. This didn’t stop us from enjoying our day.
We left our hotel around 800am and our itinerary is to go to the Southern part of Batan.
First stop: Chawa View Deck
Great way to start our day! With a strong cold wind we still went down and watch the waves in front of our eyes.:)
Don’t come closer bec you’ll get wet unless you wanted to…;)
Don’t be tempted to jump bec the rocks are quite rough ESP for cliff diving. Haha;)
Then time to do some road trip and our destination: Mahatao
When you visit Mahatao, don’t forget to visit the Blank Book Library beside the Mahatoao church. You can choose any of the books and maybe write a letter or message that you can also check when you visit Batanes again. Remember the book number.:)
Me and my friend Mylene doing some PlanaForma pose while waiting for the other tourists to finish their picture taking but it seems like they’re taking forever to finish. Thats why i wasn’t able to take a photo of the whole house… Pfffft!:)
Finally, we get to visit the one of the most famous attractions in Batanes, the Honesty Cafe. You just choose what to buy, write it down the log book, drop your payment. Take note that you need to give an exact amount bec no one can give you a change.
You can buy some local products but not too much. Im quite surprised that they don’t offer more local food there and homegrow coffee but Cong. Abad explained it to me why when I was able to talk to her during our flight back to manila.
You will be amazed on how hospitable the locals are even the kids would say hi or greet you anywhere. It seems like they’re trained to do that but I guess its their nature to welcome the tourists with a happy face…
Traveling makes our hearts beat faster and even jump because of so much happiness!
Time for lunch and when we knew that were going to eat in Marlboro Country, we can’t help it but to be excited…
Cant resist to stay for couple of minutes even if its kinda windy and super cold!:) I can hear the wind blows and thank God that I’m not too thin because I might be blown away! LOL
Its more FUN in the Philippines!!! Yes! you’re in the Philippines and not in Switzerland or some other country…
For our last stop, we visited the Boat Shelter Port, wherein the boats can dock during bad weather. It provides a safe place for them to keep their boats from being ruined by the waves and wind.
Whoooot! All set for our second day. Woke up around 430am to prepare for our island tour in Sabtang. We had breakfast in our hotel and left at 615am to go to the port since we the boat will leave around 700am. I told to myself that I will drink a medicine (bonamine) but for the sake of being sure I took one. The waves are not that strong but if you have motion sickness just be ready since it might get a lil bit rough in the middle of the sea.
We arrived in Sabtang almost 800am (30-45mins boat ride). Were fetch by our own cute lil van like a surfer chic van and ate Juliet our tour guide accompany us as well.
Tip: you can wear your swimming attire in case you want to have some dip in the ocean but be cautious with your time ESP when you’re doing a day tour only. You don’t want to miss your boat since they only have one schedule going back.;)
Oh! Helloooo white sand and this natural arc made of stones will welcome you right away!
Were amazed on how they preserved this community.
It made me feel that I’m in a different time. Their traditional house are built in a way it can stand a storm or even a tidal wave. Their main house, kitchen and even bathroom is separated to one another.
We’ve met Lola Marina, she’s 88years old and she weaves Vakul (women’s traditional head gear to protect from sun and even rain). She said that it’s the only thing that she can do since she cannot go up to the mountains.
The people in their community are hospitable even the children get to smile whenever you’ll ask them that you’ll take their photos (I guess, they’re also used with a lot of tourists asking them to smile to the camera)
Our tour guide made sure that we’ll enjoy this place that’s why we let other tourists go here first and we made this in the middle of the day. And we said to her that it’s a good decision bec were able to savor the place as a group alone! We bought some buko juice for the store along the road before going down and up to see the whole view.
We didnt mind the trail again even if its quite high. Its all worth it! One of the best place ever!!!!!!! The very picturesque scene is unbelievable coz I feel like I’m in a different part of the world but the more I felt so in love with the place. The cliff, mountains, cool breeze, white sand, and the sound of the waves are really taking my breathe away. I can’t get enough of this kind of view. One of a kind experience!
Thank you ate Juliet for our wonderful photos (group and solo)…;) you made our trip more memorable!;)
We left Sabtang by 1:00pm bec they’re monitoring the weather and glad that the coast guards are there to check the boats and made sure that everyone is safe. Again, I took my medicine since I don’t wanna risk being sea sick (tho, I don’t have one. Just to be sure…). The waves are different since its kinda rough unlike in the morning but still manageable. It’s funny that some of the elders get to scream like they’re in an amusement park. Hihi we just slept in the middle of it.
We went back to the hotel early and rested for few hours. We went to the town proper bec my friends will attend church and I get to have sometime alone. Went to the canteen near the church (in the capitol area) and tried their famous noodles.
>>>Dinner we tried this new italian restaurant few mins away from our hotel. They only serve pizza but I say it’s delicious but the service is quite slow bec I think they only have 2-3 staff in the restaurant.
I’m still excited for what is in store for our last full day in Batanes….;)
***TIP: plan your Sabtang tour on the 2nd day of your trip since they only have one boat trip everyday. It will be safe for you in case your boat will not be permitted to go back due to some bad weather situation.